September 11 - Sunday

time after time after time

3am Driving through the foggy Coastal Road felt surreal. It's a nice venue to have your whole life flash through, though not in a dying theme. Stayed at Adriatico with Suzette and told her more secrets about my lost-ness and so much more of being in-between "things".

September 10 - Saturday

time after time after time

...just hold on and keep trying..you'll be surprised to finally succeed. you're on the right track.
I'd like to go to Baguio to meet a 6'2-64kg-30-yr-old-government-employee guy, then again...i've to survive without it.

September 9 - Friday

time after time after time

At your weakest, you are naturally most vulnerable. How can you not be idle? How can you beat the devil? You simply have no other choice but to be stronger. Specially when you are alone...though we never ever are.

-- Sid supposedly put an end to my complication and some of his. I'm ready to let go, but I'd selfishly hate to be back too lonely.

September 8 - Thursday

time after time after time

It's much more likely that things will get worse. They might get better, and I know for sure that it would only take a single "call" to turn things around and bring my life back to at least a notch higher.

I'm experiencing loneliness at its peak -- to the point that I discount the fact that I at least have a friend in Suzette -- and I can't totally say I'm miserable, but hey! I am.

September 7 - Wednesday

time after time after time

whatever happens, there's just always something to hold on to you (or the other way around) when you are at the precipice of a kind of danger you'd dare not challenge. You simply do not want to hurt yourself that much, or other people for that matter.

confess to the priest and just give it up.

September 5 - 6

time after time after time

5pm Sid
7pm Zette at ATC
8-ish North Park for tofu, salted garlic squid, and shanghai chicken food trip.
1030pm Sky High movie. rrr...Steven Strait
1am Starbucks, plus a chapter in Memoirs of a Geisha (by Arthur Golden)
3am off to Malate with super rain and super flood!
330ish Giligan's with Zette on: Sid, Cloyd, sex, love, pain, family, finance, work
5ish Adriatico for some chocolate cake, coffee, childhood shared with Zette
7ish Home, watching Indonesian scandal borrowed from Zette
9ish continue reading until you're sedated


When you read a book (a novel, in particular), or when an author writes something, no matter how long it is, it absolutely covers a micro-fraction of the life of the character/s. can hardly cover EVERY event in a life, but the significant ones of course. In those idle moments, something definitely happens while whichever character thinks about anything.

What exactly happens prior, or after, even in between of the stories told, would be some of the moments i share with these characters...if i'm not one of them-- insignificant events. then again, isn't it after all that every detail needs some telling..but life is just too short. On the contrary, it's sometimes too long and idle to survive sanity.